Sins

Sometimes..people just make mistake.
It is not done purposely. It just happens.

Some called it bad habits.
Some just called it pure sins.

Sinner..is what I am.
I made mistake that I saw it coming.
Still I let it happen...
Can I be cured?
Even myself start to hate me.

Missing..someone is not the excuse
Neither loneliness too.

I guess I have to live with it.
And somehow grow out of it.
At least the process is pretty much pleasurable.

Seriously..I am Sinner...
but who am I to judge..myself..
I just have to live on bearing my mistakes
And make sure..I am worth someone to appreciate.

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birthday party ?

On saturday I attended one of my college friend 21st years old birthday party...
I don't really know him well but I had promise him to attend his birthday party...

As usual.....we have to go for saturday boring class,
after we finish our dinner and only two of us attend for the birthday party....

At the birthday party, I realized I don't know anybody there =.='''
I'm just like a stranger....

The birthday boy was busy attending his friends including my friend also busy chatting with her old friends..........So..........I was abandoned........ T.T

It is really bored that go to a party without knowing anybody there..

I stay for almost 2 hours and only listen to other people conversation...
I felt that I'm just like an addle-head...

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DID YOU EVER.....

DID YOU .......

ever love someone and know that they didn't care ?

ever feel like crying but knowing it would get you no where ?

ever look into someone's eyes and say a lil prayer ?

ever look into someone's heart wishing you were there ?

ever watch someone walk away, not wanting them to go ?

ever whisper " I Love You Very Much " but neva dare to let him know ?

ever blamed yourself ... maybe you are juz not good enuf ?

ever cry at night in misery and almost go insane ?


SOMEDAY.....

everything will all make perfect sense

So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile thru the tears

and keep reminding yourself that

everything happens for a reason .



I used to ask myself " Wat is blogging? Wat to write? " now i know y..... eiiii !!!.... where's my MILO ?!

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Someone you used to know

Another blog that i would to share with everybody.......ehem, here goes again......

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost, and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be
a distant memory

Soon i'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But i'm sorry
that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
to stay with something no longer there
but it doesn't mean i no longer care
but i'd feel like a burden you can't bear

I will be just a memories ..
Someone You used to know...

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my tiring day

ENERGY is going to empty.....

I am very tired today...
Yesterday I was clean up my house store room until 3 a.m. midnight and wake up in this morning at 10 a.m....

It is really tired and I still have work at the shop....(my part-time) XD
Today, I become an electrician because I need to change the entire spoiled bulb in the shop....

Oh my God !!!
I have changed 30++ bulb in the shop !!!

Due to my poor spiritual, while I changing the bulb I was get electric shock...
My finger was extremely PAIN !!

Sigh....=.= I still have to work....

End of the day, my body was extremely painful...
I really need a very relaxing MASSAGE...

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Come & Go

Life... consists of people come and go.
Some are forgotten and some get unknown.
Getting numb of the vicious game
Same story, same ending but different name

Yet, someone you will meet sooner or later
Someone who tells you "I beg to differ"
Her answer to complexity is pure simplicity
Getting involved with her life becomes your activity.

Everyday, you wonder what's in her mind
Till you screwed up your own bloody mind
The similarity of her story make you fear
And the line she drew is pretty damn clear

Timing now seems so wrong
Even its right, I might been gone for long
Something about her that make me stay
Just want to make her smile and have a better day

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Past = Present = Future

Past .. something of you I never able to erase,
The fear is seems so fimiliar,
The pain seems so friendly,
The confusion seems once know me.
Why I am here? again?
Putting my heart into risk again..
Going against all the odds in world..
With the reason of love which looks one sided,
With the reason of you being want to try,
Try to open you broken door for me,
My feelings towards you is like a storm,
Somehow, when it reachs you..
It is just a gush of wind..which is warm.

Present..everything you put in time trial,
With excuse that everything will clear at the end of time,
Whether you are mine or we move on with our life,
Somehow you don't understand,
Somehow you don't realise the depth,
Feels like I am drowning myself again,
This vicious cycle that seems never end.
But when I see your smile or your foolish act of mind,
I feel it is worth to stay awhile,
Maybe it is different for this time,
Maybe because she willing to try..

Future.. I dunno..I don't care..
I choosen this path..Good ending I will pray..
Hope I won't have to explain to my heart again..

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stressful day

Today I'm really tired.
What a stressful day i have !!! :-(

I think I am going to get sick soon because I got into the rain for the pass few days.

Sigh......T.T
My assignment have not done yet... I really tiring with all the coursework given by the college...
I wish time can stop and just let me rest.... I need a loooooong REST...

On the other hand, my workload keep increasing.... Plus with my assignment.....
I really don't know which one should I choose to do first.

I already headache for the past few days.. Sometimes, it is really can't stand the pain.... Medicine does not help me at all.....

HELP !!! >.<

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5/5/2010 - blogging day

Today is my first day open blogger account because I need to do my Information Technology mini project for our lecturer Mr. Willson Ching.

Actually I don't know what to write inside this blog but for the sake of my 10 marks mini project what can I do??!! ………

I have to do it even though I dislike. For my opinion, writing BLOG is just like writing your own privacy matters to the whole world... BLOG just like DIARY…

But what can I do? I still have to complete this mini project for my IT...

Let’s start blogging…….
Oooo…..
Today is a raining day... sucks.... I hate RAINING..

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