being a person

sometimes i really dont know why we become a human? it is so tired.. when we were young the time we need to care about elderly people feelings. but when we get older we need to care more and more people feelings.. especially sometimes when we talk we couldnt simply talk because we dont know when we will harm people feelings or relationship.. i would like to say sorry to the person i hurt before especially i nearly make someone break up that person.. i am really sorry.. i know no matter wat i say now is useless but now i would like to say is i will to wish two of u all the best and appreciate each other..

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Sins

Sometimes..people just make mistake.
It is not done purposely. It just happens.

Some called it bad habits.
Some just called it pure sins.

Sinner..is what I am.
I made mistake that I saw it coming.
Still I let it happen...
Can I be cured?
Even myself start to hate me.

Missing..someone is not the excuse
Neither loneliness too.

I guess I have to live with it.
And somehow grow out of it.
At least the process is pretty much pleasurable.

Seriously..I am Sinner...
but who am I to judge..myself..
I just have to live on bearing my mistakes
And make sure..I am worth someone to appreciate.

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birthday party ?

On saturday I attended one of my college friend 21st years old birthday party...
I don't really know him well but I had promise him to attend his birthday party...

As usual.....we have to go for saturday boring class,
after we finish our dinner and only two of us attend for the birthday party....

At the birthday party, I realized I don't know anybody there =.='''
I'm just like a stranger....

The birthday boy was busy attending his friends including my friend also busy chatting with her old friends..........So..........I was abandoned........ T.T

It is really bored that go to a party without knowing anybody there..

I stay for almost 2 hours and only listen to other people conversation...
I felt that I'm just like an addle-head...

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DID YOU EVER.....

DID YOU .......

ever love someone and know that they didn't care ?

ever feel like crying but knowing it would get you no where ?

ever look into someone's eyes and say a lil prayer ?

ever look into someone's heart wishing you were there ?

ever watch someone walk away, not wanting them to go ?

ever whisper " I Love You Very Much " but neva dare to let him know ?

ever blamed yourself ... maybe you are juz not good enuf ?

ever cry at night in misery and almost go insane ?


SOMEDAY.....

everything will all make perfect sense

So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile thru the tears

and keep reminding yourself that

everything happens for a reason .



I used to ask myself " Wat is blogging? Wat to write? " now i know y..... eiiii !!!.... where's my MILO ?!

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Someone you used to know

Another blog that i would to share with everybody.......ehem, here goes again......

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost, and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be
a distant memory

Soon i'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But i'm sorry
that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
to stay with something no longer there
but it doesn't mean i no longer care
but i'd feel like a burden you can't bear

I will be just a memories ..
Someone You used to know...

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my tiring day

ENERGY is going to empty.....

I am very tired today...
Yesterday I was clean up my house store room until 3 a.m. midnight and wake up in this morning at 10 a.m....

It is really tired and I still have work at the shop....(my part-time) XD
Today, I become an electrician because I need to change the entire spoiled bulb in the shop....

Oh my God !!!
I have changed 30++ bulb in the shop !!!

Due to my poor spiritual, while I changing the bulb I was get electric shock...
My finger was extremely PAIN !!

Sigh....=.= I still have to work....

End of the day, my body was extremely painful...
I really need a very relaxing MASSAGE...

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Come & Go

Life... consists of people come and go.
Some are forgotten and some get unknown.
Getting numb of the vicious game
Same story, same ending but different name

Yet, someone you will meet sooner or later
Someone who tells you "I beg to differ"
Her answer to complexity is pure simplicity
Getting involved with her life becomes your activity.

Everyday, you wonder what's in her mind
Till you screwed up your own bloody mind
The similarity of her story make you fear
And the line she drew is pretty damn clear

Timing now seems so wrong
Even its right, I might been gone for long
Something about her that make me stay
Just want to make her smile and have a better day

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